Shattered

They say, "You don't trust yourself. You lack confidence."

Yes I don't, I don't because,

Everytime I believe myself, I fail.

I get stuck when I should be running,

Yet again, again, and again.

And with that they tell me to win the race.

How can I?

You tell me how can I?

And if you think I didn't try, 

Trust me I did.

I tried to get up, every single time I fell.

Every single time I fight myself. 

Trying to convince me, "It's not over yet. You can still do it."

But what if my legs don't move.

What if this getting up, falling, getting up again and falling again

Has worn me out.

And then you say I don't trust myself.